||[Jul. 21st, 2009|03:32 pm]
i am sorry i neglect you and have moved onto tumblr and other such vessels to track my failed coherence. sometimes it is just too painful to recall things through you. the past six weeks have left me in a permanent state of dissolution. i miss her too much to talk. i don't want to be touched. i don't understand. i have no words. no feelings. no emotions. my black hole makes it hard enough to form words to convince the people closest to me i'm doing okay. posting pictures seems to be the only way i can express myself. one day i will get out of this semi-permanent writers block and return to you. i'll miss you. and if not, i'll leave a note before i go to fiji.